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any good?

people say that love is an ecstasy.. could u figure out how i feel when "the ecstasy" itself is avoiding me.. i never meant to avoid "the ecstasy".. even if i am drugged, i dont need any rehabilitation afterall cause the one that make me ecstastic is u.. i just want u to know that life without me is unbearable.. im just trying to prove that "u have plenty of people that could make u happier then u're with me" is a wrong statement.. soon u will get what i mean and i really hope u could be my ecstasy for someday and ever and ever.. and when u figure it out, just don't do any act that forced me to do this again.. cause it's really really really really hard to kill my needy feeling to have some contact and chat with u.. it really gives me hell.. :(

how six songs collide

what a nice mixed songs.. every single one of them is an extraordinary song with an extraordinary mix.. here's the link :
http://www.imeem.com/lookatmenw/music/-ph-PwmR/norwegian-recycling-brought-to-you-by-mashuptowncom-how-six/
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks,
And I'm tryin to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be givin it my best test and
Nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn
To win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more, no more,
It cannot wait I'm yours


The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah


Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment may be see with me
Allah peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved


I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong were seek to right
(I’m sure) Out of the doubt that fills my mind
( There's no need to complicate our time is short)
I somehow find
(This is our fate)You and I(I’m yours ) collide



I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird, I’m more than a plane
I’m more than some pretty face beside a train
And it’s not easy to be me

Was it enough stimulation
Hit by a truck the other day
Just when I thought that I’m ok
Didn’t like my conversation
I can’t come up with something new
It doesn’t really matter what I do
So here’s my observation
You could never see it through my eyes
And I’m too tired to try

I was lost and alone, trying to grow
Making my way down that long winding road
Had no reason, had no rhyme, like a song sang out of time
And there you were standing in front of my eyes
How could I’ve been such a fool
To let go of love and break all of the rules
Girl, when you walked out that door
You left a hole in my heart and now I know for sure

I’m here without you baby
But your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But your still with me in my dreams
And tonight (I’m yours)
And don't lie and say your over me
Don't mean nothing
I'm always getting over you
I was lost and alone, but your still on my lonely mind
It can not wait I’m yours
I cant stand to fly
You finally find, You and I collide
I’m just out to find, You finally find, You and I collide
You finally find, You and I collide

regretness

what the hell is going on with my life?? why everything seems so wrong?? no one believe in my words,my behaviour.. even i made her feel so bad.. please GOD made my day better

about love

im pretty sure that im not a sophiscated writer or a love expert and yet what i write about is something provable and probable for other guys out there too.. so, all of my mind about love is simple.. yeah love itself is simple.. when two lovers have a crush on each other, then both of them can confess and feel each other irresistable feeling to desire each other and sink into their feeling... BAM it's love i guess.. i believe that im happily in love at this very moment.. and im really into her now and just let myself sink into the "sea of love".. that sinking make me a little fanatic about her and a little over-cherish her or smth else you can mention that kind of feeling.. in every moment before sleeping , every moment after waking up, even in some dream, its always her showing up.. i dont know if she feel the same way too and i dont concern about that much.. all that come to my mind are "i love you" and "you love me".. that both 3 words really put me in a maximum level of a love-state.. yepp.. i really love u sayangg if u read thiss.. :)

PS : Cepat bangun..

boring holidays..

well.. it has been a long time since this was last being updated.. hehe.. rather than giving story about nothing to find about, i would spread my mind about this boring and not-so-enjoyable holiday.. hmm, on jun 7 (Indo's time) i went to Soekarno Hatta airport to depart for taiwan transferring to san fransisco.. well it was quite exciting on the way to the airport being accompanied by my lovely lover.. perhaps it was the best moment on that day as neither flights was interesting and convenient.. and yet waiting in Taipei for transfer was not quite bad.. i could spend my boring time messaging my girlfriend which unawaredly expensive.. then the miserable flight continued as announcement for my flight came.. then here i came in SanFransisco international airport.. as i expected the most industrious country in the world had some awesome night-view even from the highway which was worthed after the flights.. haha.. and so on and on.. for these 2 weeks after going around California such as LosAngeles, San Diego, Reno, and last-but-not-least Yosemite National Park, none of all comforted me except during the night and day when i could have a little but meaningful conversation with my gf on msn.. nonetheless i also went to the casino world in Las Vegas which was gamble-y indeed.. oh my mobilephone fee was big enough to get scolded by my both parents who forbid me to use the phone any further.. so it was so miserable in the paid-for-internet hotels in vegas which impossibly i use.. then here i came back in Berkeley apart from SanFransisco which i thought was part of SF.. huahhh i expected this miserable holiday trip ended quick and came back to jakarta immediately..huah

XIA4 Kelas penuh suka dan duka :) :(

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